Please Please let get what I want this time

Oh Lord I know this would be the first time that you let me get what I want,
Now I understand why he had to go , I wonder I always wonder why did he have to die?
like this?.
No one understand, just my family.
Things are supposed to get better and maybe they are,
But it's just that I don't feel them like that,
because I don't have him.
But.
This what I asked, it's not money, it's not superficial things.
It's my destiny, It's my goal as a human, and it's not impossible to do.
Because now I understand that destiny is written and you can't change it.
And it didn't matter how much I prayed in that time , my uncle my beautiful uncle was dentiny to die.
Death was his destiny , and our pain,our scar, but now he is fine.
And you couldn't change it, and I couldn't ,maybe he could but he decided not to.
But now I prayed for this, for this goal I'm aiming to , and I know it's my destiny
as I kwen my uncle was going to die, now I know that this is my path , for the good or the bad, it's what I want, and i'ts what my destiny has put in my way.

I'm prepared, I've felt it for so many years,deep in my soul,in the deepest part of my soul, I know and I just want you to help me, to achieve this.

I'm so close.

I can feel it, and it's so weird , so please please let me get what I want this time just this time.
Lord knows it would be the first time, I know , I know it's my destiny